Suzanne’s Personal Quote and Blog for 11/6/2022

Quote

Run, run, run.

Rush, rush, rush.

The world is a game.

And life is a paintbrush.

We move our energy

In swirls and flows.

We try to listen.

And learn to expose.

What lies under

The patterns that unfold.

Hopefully we will discover

Who we are before we are old.

~Suzanne Wagner~

Blog

Last night as we were in the final hotel in Eureka before we headed back to my home in Willits, there was a family in the room above us that had a child that could not stop running from one end of the room to the other. He or she was like a baby elephant on our heads in an incessant pattern of movement, back and forth, up and down.

After hours of listening to it while watching the TV series Versailles, we finally called at 10:15 pm to the downstairs front desk to ask if they could get the family to put that child to bed.
I marvel at all parents that navigated the intense demands that children offer and also know the wonder that is the gift of watching someone grow and evolve.

My sister had 4 children that were full of life-force energy and were a handful on all levels. So, I know both the gifts and the complications of child-rearing.

I too was a child that has too much energy. My mother said that even in utero I would never stop moving. And to this day, I seem to be in a constant state of motion.

I have learned that I am a person that loves to give energy to others in a variety of ways. I have also learned in doing forms of meditation such as Vipassana. I learned that training the mind and body to be still … will show us what we are avoiding.

I remember being a child and realizing that a lot of my constant, incessant movement was fear. I was often afraid of people and situations.
Many psychics have told me than I had been tortured and killed in many lifetimes and that I should be terrified of people.

I told them, “Oh, I am terrified of them!” I told them that fear heightens awareness so that I could sense if someone was a real danger to me or not.

But living constantly on those edges of fear is exhausting and I recognized that I could learn to stay aware without needing the fear and anxiety to ruin my nervous system.

I remember learning this from my mother. My father would say, “Why do you need to the house to be so perfect and clean. Just stop!” And my mother’s response was, “You can either let me clean or let me go to a therapist. Both will work but one will cost a lot more money!”

Activities can help us to process and cope when we are cleaning or working from a mindful and conscious place.

But too many are rushing and doing without being conscious of why. They allow the fears within to place them in a marathon game of life that is filled with distractions rather than conscious clarity and purpose.

Everyone can get caught up in the game. Everyone can allow the patterns to control us rather than allow us to recognize our own patterns of avoidance.

Perhaps today, that could begin to change.

~Suzanne Wagner~

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