Numerology/Astrology for 10/14/18

 

10/14/18 is the number 8. The number 8 asks you to let the feelings rise up and overflow. Let the depth within you …. Out. In life, authenticity is often messy. We are in a time where the “real” requires a type of depth and vulnerability. Pretending that everything is okay, clearly is not working, and the energy it takes to maintain such false projections of self can be detrimental to your health. It is action that will move you past grief and into some direction that will allow you to shift emotionally.

~Suzanne Wagner~

Astrology Today

 

The Moon is still on its Treasure Hunt in Sagittarius until 3 pm EDT at which then it goes into Capricorn and aligning with Saturn.

That brings us to recognize that there are now three planets in Capricorn and three planets in Scorpio with the Sun in Libra with Mars going full speed ahead.

You are going to ask if you are on the right path, if you are going in the right direction? There is a chance that you realize the huge amount of work ahead and that you have to own what you have chosen. This is a big reality check. You have to find what you are committed to. Not from a manic and crazy space but from a space of clarity and openness. What is really worth it to you? What can you commit to for a long time? Because this cycles is about us transcending through the darkness. Are you going to be a toxic, crazy rebel or are you seeking from a place of a consistent transformational seeker?

It is all about responsibility as the Sun/Saturn quintile reinforces the realization that you are going to need to sort, categorize, find a structure and create some methods of making oder out of chaos. Attention to detail is important because things today have a time limit. Look at your obligations and do not shirk your duty to those previous agreements.

This Mercury/Venus conjunction continues all weekend. You are understanding life as best as you can. You are on a quest in your life. This journey is really a long term one. There is no quick fix that you can make that will last. There is going to be a lot work ahead. This moment is really about knowing your path. It is about those people that are on your path with you. If you are clear and committed, you will pull those that are also clear and committed to you. Just because you feel that you are completely committed does not mean that you can do it alone. The path ahead is clearly not one that any of us can do alone. Spiritual families are coming together. That is important because none of us can find the clarity we seek completely alone and without feedback from those that love us.

~Suzanne Wagner~

Quote

 

Grief changes shape,
but it never ends.
~Keanu Reeves~

 

 

 

Blog

There was a moment in my life when I was 17 years old that things just did not go the way I had planned. I was in New York City on a scholarship for dancing and I wanted to get into New York City Ballet. Partially because most dance companies at that time did not take dancers as tall as myself. But I was the top of my class and I knew that if they would take anyone it would be me into an apprenticeship. But fate and destiny often have other plans. I went in for my evaluation with Balanchine and he had just hired Baryshnikov to join New York City Ballet. Baryshnikov was short and he needed short girls to stand next to him on stage and NYCB was known for its long and lanky dancers. Devastated, I heard that he was hiring only short girls that season for the company.

Now, my father never really wanted me to go into Ballet and was always pushing college. He said if I did not get in I had to come back and go to school. That sounded like the death to my dream in this life. That is when I learned personally (without a book or mentor) the stages of grief.

The first stage of grief is shock and denial. In general, you just want to numb out and go back into the past where the feelings were different and familiar. It is a form of protection when being overwhelmed.
The second stage of grief is pain and guilt. As the shock wears off it is replaced with the reality of the situation and the pain hits hard. You cannot hide from the pain and no amount of avoidance works. Then you recognize your own mistakes and feel guilty about your own denial or the missed opportunities.
The third stage is anger and bargaining. This is a stage where you want to take some sort of action so you feel better. Better to lash out and blame others than to take accountability for your own needs and choices. This has movement but that movement is often still not about an honest evaluation of self but a projection onto an external so you can feel less depressed.
The fourth stage is the upward turn. You begin to calm down and your physical misery begins to lessen slightly.
The fifth stage is acceptance and hope. Everyone has to learn to deal with the reality, one way or another. Acceptance does not mean happiness. It just means that you are no longer fighting and projecting what you are feeling outwards into the world the same way. You recognize that you will never be the same and yet you have to find a way forward. You see the value of happiness and the cultivation of joy again.

~Suzanne Wagner~