Numerology/Astrology for 5/13/20

5/13/20 is the number 4. If you add the 5 + 1 +3 + 2 + 0 + 2 + 0 = 13. 1 + 3 = 4.

Harmony to me… is when it rains. I live in the redwoods and you can feel the trees call to the rain and pull the weather into the area so they can have a drink. Redwoods can get water from their leaves and the humidity, not just the rain that lands on the ground. There is a symbiotic relationship in all forms of nature. Here the ocean kisses the land and the land calls to that ocean. Together they sing and dance together in a timeless dance of intimacy and connection. Nature is perfectly attuned to the cycles of the seasons. Balance comes with the number 4 through aligning yourself with those natural flows and being aware in each moment. Personal inner contentment supports a type of harmony that is (right now) essential for sanity and holding a spark of hope.

~Suzanne Wagner~

Astrology Today

As you wake up on Wednesday, the warrior planet Mars will have moved into intuitive and compassionate Pisces until June 27. And the loving and graceful planet Venus turns retrograde until June 24. It is a perfect time to use your intuition and step into being your version of a spiritual warrior. You are being compelled to take action to find ways to bring compassion, care, love, and hope into the world. Venus can help you to find new ideas for relationships and balancing your budget. Given the challenging economy, tighten up on your budget and keep it there. The energy (right now) is supporting choices and projects that are short and quick, and it can help you produce a little extra income.

Overall emotional and spiritual goals clearly hold a higher priority over traditional goals and ideals. The energy patterns today are erratic, so don’t judge yourself if you are feeling a bit “all over” the place.

It feels as if direct routes to success are blocked. You have to find a way around things. Nothing feels simple anymore. While you may want to confront and rage against the machine that seems to control your life, you don’t have the options you would prefer at this time. So, it is best to let go and find the flow.

Put your own agenda behind you. Satisfaction will not come from that angle. Instead do those things that others need. It will help to step past your wants and needs and see into the needs of others.

Expect many things to shift around and change over the next few days. Because so much is going retrograde, do not make big decisions for the next few months. There is a lot of review and reflection that will be needed over the next 6 months.
Stay calm.
Know you are built for this moment. Many unhealthy habits will be laid to rest during all these retrogrades.

Many will be feeling headstrong, irritable, and driven to relieve the inner and out tension. Your mood could derail your inner sanity and peace. Do not let it. Love feels quirky and there is a strange pull to do things that are not always healthy. Remember, you have choice in all moments.

~Suzanne Wagner~

Quote

Because we live in a world of duality,

you are either pulled or pushed

by the duality in the external world,

or you are working to become unified

with the duality in your internal world.

Once you are unified and loving all

parts of your own light and darkness,

the drama that continuously unfolds

in the external world seems less critical.

~Suzanne Wagner~

Blog

As a child I felt the connections between past and present. It is hard to describe because to me they overlapped constantly and there was less of a defined line than you would believe. There were all these layers that overlapped, intermingled, and engaged with each other. As a 4 year old child I walked into a room of Catholic Church women that were having a meeting in our house and overheard them discussing strongly that reincarnation was not real because the Church said it was so.

I said just as strongly back, incredulously, “Well, of course you have past lives, can’t you remember yours?”

They stared at me blankly and in shock.

Finally, one woman said to me, “No! I do not remember any past lives!”

That was the first moment when I realized something that would come to me as a lesson again and again throughout my childhood.

Here were these religious women who believed in God but they had lost all real divine connection to what was true and what was right there in front of them.

I could see the filaments of their past lives touching them, moving them, motivating them but they were lost and unaware in the chaos of the mind of an adult.
I could see their angels and guides trying to help them.

Some of those guides would just shake their head, meaning that “No, they do not understand!”

That was the moment when I began to recognize the real trouble this world was in.
Here were these women that wanted to know God but did not know that God was all around them in every moment. They had allowed this life of duality and density to disconnect them from the higher realms. No wonder they were so zealous in wanting to look and act spiritual. They wanted to believe that they still had a connection.
But they did not.
And that was the danger.
Adults were in control of this world. They made the decisions that impacted everyone. It was clear to me that they should not be allowed to be in control because they were very lost themselves.

From that point on in my mind, I called the religious zealots, “the pretenders”.
They pretend to know, when they have forgotten what is really important. They go through the motions and believe that that will save them from the suffering that they inflict on others.
But it will not.
They repeat the spiritual words over and over again in church but it is them that do not feel into those words. They do not embody those words. Those words do not inspire divine action within them.
I wondered if they repeated the words enough if they would eventually remember?

But then I came to a realization that has carried me through this life.

I could believe the words someone spoke or I could believe my experience of who they showed themselves to be.

The words adults spoke often sounded beautiful and wonderful. They seemed perfect. But my experience of them was often contrary and out of alignment with the truth the they embodied and acted out in this world.

That is when I realized that words can be deceptive and hide truth. Words can be used as a disguise and are inadequate to give a full picture of what is really going on. Words are designed to manipulate and negotiate agreement.

I decided that most adults could not be trusted because they had lost their “God” connection. While they would recite the words that were the rules of this domain, that they did not know what was really going on.
I vowed in that moment, to never lose that connection and to always remember to trust myself more than I trusted the words of others.

Now, that did isolate me from others for years. It did make it hard for me to let information in from others because I assumed that they were always speaking from their own distortion.
And most of the time that was true.

But occasionally there were others (like me) that had navigated this world by staying in touch with their inner child and that divine connection the lives and breathes in everyone.
And those people, in the right circumstances, could give some valid information and insight.

But I learned a lot by trusting first myself.
I learned and had to own, when I was off. I had no one to blame but myself. I found I was generally happier than the others that I witnessed. If you are willing to learn and grow, then trusting your own process is a powerful tool for growth. If you are unwilling to evolve and grow from your mistakes and think that you are always right, you are mentally ill and a sociopath. If you blame others for your experiences and choices then you have lost that connection to the divine that has a conscience to tell you when you are off and out of line.

That is why I say to people that I have been wrong a lot. I am made thousands of mistakes. But I try to learn from each and every one of them. I lean into my own discomfort and do not blame anyone for my life, my actions, or my choices. I recognize that truth lies at the other side of my own beliefs. And the discomfort is a clue that the door is close by.

~Suzanne Wagner~