Poem – My Mother

I have a duty to keep my mother safe.
Safe from herself as the time gets late.

Safe from her mind that cannot see what to do.
She looks for someone, but she does not know who.

The delusions escalate and with it comes the fear.
Death is stalking her and is very near.

As the threads begin to unwind.
The old knots of wounding loudly chime.

And she is left with nothing but the unresolved inside.
No matter where she will go, she cannot hide.

It is so painful to watch as her reality fades away.
And nothing I can do and nothing I can say.

Seems to stick with her for very long.
She hears only the voices of fears song.

I know she is safe and I know she is in the place she needs to be.
I just wish for her something that seems only I can see.

She taught me how to surrender and go with the flow.
Because she could never let go or trust more than she could know.

She is taken care of in so many ways.
I hope for myself that I do not end up in this play.

I hope for grace to be with me until the end.
I pray for kindness to be my closest friend.

She has taught me so much and I am grateful to this day.
She does not see that all her pain and dismay.

Forced me to see past her illusions of what was real.
And look inside until I found my own real deal.

~Suzanne Wagner~