4/26/18 is the number 5. Getting real is never easy. Living in the mind and the world of ideas and possibilities is always fun but then there is always the moment that you have to get back to really living your life. And life is messy. There are those fears and insecurities that get in the way of your fullest self, awakening. There are those wounds from your past that still have not fully healed and jump into your awareness when you least expect them. But those are the genetic patterns that make you beautifully flawed and completely human. And that is a beautiful thing and a blessing. When you no longer think you are perfect but that you are here to experience the complexity of life in all its messiness and glory, then you know you have fully arrived here in this time and in this place on this wonderful planet. And from that place you can help. You cannot help if you are not fully here and grounded into the suffering of others hearts as well as the suffering of your own heart. It is the truth of who you are in all of your flaws that allow your compassionate heart to grow. It is earth that teaches us what we are missing. It is the reality that slams down and crashes those illusions to dust that allow us to become authentic and real.
After yesterday’s lull, this morning there is a Mars-Pluto alignment that occurs in Capricorn brining a more ambitious and determined energy that can help in building or rebuilding. This only occurs about every two years. Expect something to stir your desire, and make you leap into action on something today. Do your best to not be so impatient and watch out for that tendency to be think that what you want is more important than others feelings. Notice if you have buried any old resentments because if you are not careful that hidden anger might be driving your actions instead of your heart and compassion. Notice if you want to ignore reason. If you channel this energy well it can bring an increased ability to focus on a task through to completion. Do you dare to go for what you really want? And are you willing to take the necessary and decisive actions that it requires? It is time to not take “no” for an answer. It is time to revise your previous plan and/or rebuild something that is no longer working. Sometimes breaking something down is necessary in order to start over. And it might be time to put something in your past behind you completely. Don’t force others to do what you what. You need to do what you must to move into a new realm. Be aware of your energy levels and don’t overtax yourself. Power struggles are likely and know you could be tested to your limit in some area. With the Moon in Virgo you have a plan and now you need to act on that plan.
The leaves on the tree of freedom
fall into the compost of time.
To litter the ground with the dried up
memories of lost potential
and missed moments.
A life to be resurrected
when the essential elements
have been broken down
from toxic sludge of hate
And in the right mix
of creative compassion,
becomes reborn and the
phoenix of hope rises up again
to the light of day
with the wisdom
of its ancestors and lineage.
By Paul Simon
Let us be lovers, we’ll marry our fortunes together
I’ve got some real estate here in my bag
So we bought a pack of cigarettes and Mrs. Wagner’s pies
And we walked off to look for America
Cathy, I said as we boarded a Greyhound in Pittsburgh
Michigan seems like a dream to me now
It took me four days to hitchhike from Saginaw
I’ve gone to look for America
Laughing on the bus, playing games with the faces
She said the man in the gabardine suit was a spy
I said, be careful, his bowtie is really a camera
Toss me a cigarette, I think there’s one in my raincoat
We smoked the last one an hour ago
So I looked at the scenery
She read her magazine
And the moon rose over an open field
Cathy, I’m lost, I said though I knew she was sleeping
And I’m empty and aching and I don’t know why
Counting the cars on the New Jersey Turnpike
They’ve all come to look for America
All come to look for America
All come to look for America